I was talking today to some of the people I look up to most in this world. That's when my friend put into words what had been on my heart for the last few months.
He said it so simply...
"You know in Star Wars when they say, 'the force is strong with this one.'" My prayer is that I would become more like that, but with the Holy Spirit.
Do you have someone in your life like that? That when they're in a room with you--you feel the need and desire to look more like Jesus. You want to ask THEM to pray because you feel like they have this presence about them?
I have friends like that, but I don't think I'm one of those people to others. I want that to change. My prayer is that over the next few months that God would lead me to being one of those people...
I always want to value time spent in His presence far more than I value MY presentation. Without the Lord there is nothing. Do I really believe that? Most of the time, yes!
But what would life look like without fear? With our apprehension? With expectation that God will be faithful? With a prayer and an attitude of double the faith and understanding of the presence of the Holy Spirit?
My hope for both of us (yes, you! the imaginary person on the other side of this screen) is that we would begin to surrender our lives more. More seriously. More frequently. More creatively.
Just S U R R E N D E R... everything.
My prayer is that we would begin to have a presence about us. That the time spent with Jesus changes us to look more like Him. That our ability to have faith in surrender is something that changes the ora around us. Something almost tangible that Christians and non-christians can identify.
"Have you met __________(your name)___? She's cool, right? There's something so different about her. It's almost like she has this... I dunno.. peace? No, not that. Kindess? Well, kinda that... she's just like nothing I've ever experienced..."
That experience is the Holy Spirit and you can bridge between a prodigal and the Gospel just because the Force is strong within you.
I think in any other situation the words would have stung quite a bit.
Jacque, I don't need you.
We were on the phone one afternoon talking about life, our relationship, and our future. That's when my boyfriend said those words,
"Jacque, I don't need you."
Our conversation blurred in front of me. Surely, after a little over a year he wasn't going to break up with me like that! What does he mean he doesn't need me?
Thankfully, he continued the sentence with I don't need you...
I need Jesus. Desperately.
It's like the love brick wall hit me in the face again. What a wonderful man God has blessed me with! But isn't he so right? If you're anything like me, maybe you think you need a lot of things.
-I need a comfortable home (maybe not extravagant, but comfortable for sure)
-I need a steady income and a safe budget
-I need friends who have my back
-I need a kid who behaves
-I need a longer grey jacket
The truth is you don't need any of that and neither do I. You, me, my boyfriend we all need Jesus, desperately. Once we set our eyes on Him and realize He is the fulfiller, the provider, the dream giver, the everything.
"And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. To our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen."
God will provide. It says so right here in the Bible. He knows our needs better than we do. In fact, God knows our wants better than we do. And He will provide everything with the perfect timing that He always does. We genuinely don't need anything other than Him.
My boyfriend may love me and I may love him, but he's right we don't need each other.
Reevaluate your own relationships and priority lists--are you giving Jesus the need priority above all else? Ask Him to help set your priorities straight. Fix your eyes on Him and all your needs and wants will be perfectly fulfilled according to His will.